December 28, 2015

by Robyn Bryant


December 28, 2015

 

Courage: The ability to do something that frightens one. I think about Courage a great deal. At times, I feel like I have no courage, I have so many fears, most of my fears are related to the future. These fears come from Christian’s illness and death. I started my day reading a new blog that Bailey shared. It was written yesterday and it’s about courage. This young woman’s blog gave me courage to finally read an article Bailey shared a while back. Today both this blog and this article have impacted me in profound ways. I knew the article would make me cry, when you read it you will see why it took courage for me to finally read it. I am encouraged today that there is so much “Good” in our world. Please take the time to read the blog post and article, I promise you, it will change your day. - Robyn

 

https://bewhimsyblog.wordpress.com/2015/12/28/20-seconds-of-courage/

 

http://time.com/4138683/katie-couric-karlie-kloss-abby-shapiro-and-the-power-of-kindness/?xid=time_socialflow_facebook

 

 


December 6, 2015

by Robyn Bryant


December 6, 2015

 

Just Imagine...this may be your first Christmas without a loved one, it may be your Father, Mother, Sister, Brother, Grandmother, Grandfather, beloved Aunt, Uncle or Cousin or your best friend, or maybe YOUR SON or DAUGHTER. Every person is very different and loss and grief are different for everyone. This is our 4th Christmas without Christian. Christmas was her favorite holiday. We have tried hard to make Christmas a happy day and remember the true meaning, but her absence with us will always be profoundly felt. So imagine, what if, the month of December is the month that your young child died, or the day before Thanksgiving you were told your child’s cancer was back and had spread....I know multiple parents that fit this description....I am asking that you all STOP every day this month and lift up my friends in prayer. My heart is heavy for so many friends, especially a beautiful young teen that I love dearly...but at the same time my heart rejoices, because I KNOW the life after this life has to be truly amazing. Thank you God for your promise...For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16......Remember, Love Deeply, Forgive Often and Find your Blessings... ~ Robyn


December 2, 2015

by Robyn Bryant


December 2, 2015 Evening

It has been a long time since I have written and I do not know where to start. I think I will start with the last week. Thanksgiving was good, I honestly think the sunny skies and mild weather helped. I think the best part of the Thanksgivining Holiday this year is that It all started with an Amazing Terpsichord Thanksgiving Concert at GPS. Honestly, I think that concert set the tone for the entire Holiday. Bailey and I spent a great day of shopping in Atlanta with a perfect shopping friend. She will definately be included in future shopping trips. Even after the shopping trip to Atlanta, Bailey and I supported a local shop that we love the next day and supported it again the next day when we had lunch with all the Cullum girls. I am honestly surprised Chris has not hit the big STOP on shopping. He knows shopping has always been all 3 of his girls therapy. Christian could shop with the best and had amazing taste. My Mother has never understood where my shopping taste came from....probably one of my Daddy’s sisters. Now, Bailey has the most amazing eye for style and knows her designers and brands better than anyone I have ever seen. That was obvioius last week at a cosmetic area in Neiman Marcus in Atlanta. 

So, last week was not full of wonderfulness...a dear friend heard really bad news about her cancer. I still have no words. Honestly for her Mom and family no words are appropriate or okay. Today, I wrote my young friend a very long message full of more than she probably wanted to read. But I know she read it and hopefully, it helped her in some way...

Okay, now I struggle...there is so much to say, but considering what my friend is facing it’s so hard to move past that...

There has been so much positive today happening....I will have to share in a separate post. I have been listening to music since I got home tonight and there are songs that truly bring cold chills...I will post of some of those. Christian’s story has been published in a magazine a long with Esme Miller’s Story...for that I am so thankful. I am scheduled to speak at pediatriac conference in March. I am honored and scared and thankful and I so ready to try to wow a crowd with the incredible story of Christian and her amazing legacy! In the last 2 hours I found out about another honor, but I am not at liberty to share that news yet. Right now, I am so thankful for life, for my marriage, for my beautiful girls, even though one is no longer on earth, they both continue to impact this earth...God truly blesed me with amazing parents, a perfect husband and children that amaze me every day (even though one is in Heaven). I am so proud to be blessed to be the Mother of Christian and Bailey Bryant and the wife of Chris Bryant. 

So remember to love deeply, forgive often and find your blessings, Robyn


October 21, 2015

by Robyn Bryant


October 21, 2015

 

Today, 4 years ago, was the first Team CMB event and it was so huge. Looking back at the pictures today brought back good memories, but it also made me sad...there is so much emotion around the race for me. Every year has been so special and this year was truly incredible. I know that going forward we will have a team of people helping us build Team CMB and for that I am so thankful. 

 

When I left the race Sunday, I did not go home and take a nap. Instead I went to Children’s Hospital at Erlanger to spend time with a dear and special friend and her daughter. My friend’s daughter, that was diagnosed with cancer in April of 2015, has endured so much, she recently returned to Tennessee and had to be admitted to our Children’s Hospital late Saturday night. I have many friends that have or had children with cancer....but since Christian died, I have never spent more than 30 minutes or so in the room with another child with cancer. The last beautiful child I spent any length of time in her room was Grace Guerrero. Today is the 1st anniversary of her death. Over a year ago, her Mama ask me to come to PICU and talk with them. I stood in her PICU room and talked openly and honestly with her Mama and Daddy. I am so blessed that they invited me in and I am thankful for Crystal and Noe, they are both examples of parents who love deeply! So, Sunday afternoon, I spent about 3 hours with my sweet friend, that I love so much in the hospital room, with her beautiful 17 year old daughter. I am thankful for the timing of the visit. There was a specialist there for a consultation...but I met this specialist when he was a senior pediatric resident. I gained a new respect for him Sunday. I talked to him before he ever entered the room, I had questions. I was very impressed by his exam and his concern and compassion. I ask more questions while he was in the room and wanted to make sure this beautiful young lady’s Mama understood the plan, so I ask him to repeat and clarify everything. I went into NURSE mode. It was a good feeling because, I know I am still a good nurse under all my anxiety about taking care of patients again. But the bottom line is, I am a cancer Mama and I always will be, so my approach to everything medical is different now. I need to tell you, my friend ask mutiple, mutiple times if I was okay while I was there and when she walked in the hall when I left. She is very sensitive to the fact that my child did not survive. And I am always cautious about my presence, I never want anyone to feel awkward. 

 

I returned to Children’s Hospital at Erlanger yesterday morning pretty early. I delivered Julie Darling’s donuts to PICU and Children’s 300 and then took a gourmet dozen to my sweet friend. When I eased open the door, she was sitting close to the door, her beautiful daughter was asleep. We did not talk much yesterday, I talked with her daughter’s nurse, who was also Christian’s nurse - I have not talked to her in ages and loved catching up...Yesterday morning, I had someplace to be early and could not stay long with my friend, but I knew I was acting odd and distracted to her....Later in the day I realized, I am starting to learn my limitations...I had few flash backs yesterday morning, nothing bad, but it just made my chest tight and my heart hurt and I thought about it a lot. My biggest fear was being able to communicate this all to my friend without hurting someone who has been hurt by so many. All communication was good today and my fellow cancer Mama and I are good. 

 

Now, here is the main purpose of all of this....Childhood Cancer is so horrific! Chris and I had each other. Many parents are all on their on...no spouse, maybe a boyfriend/girlfriend or fiance...but they are so alone! I had so many friends to call and ask for stuff and they never ask questions, they just did what I needed.  99% of Childhood cancer families in our Region have NO ONE.... how are we going to help, how can we make a difference? If you are interested in making a difference on a very small, medium, in between or large scale, send me a message! You can always text me too...706-217-7995.  Please consider being the Change and makeing a difference for our local Childhood Cancer families. And remember, Love Deeply, Forgive Often and Find your Blessings! - Robyn