February 3, 2015
Today, for the first time in longer than I can remember, I woke up feeling rested and truly happy. After driving Bailey to school, I took the time to sit by the Tennesse River and watch the sunrise. I texted pictures to Chris and a couple of friends. Two of those friends, are like me, Mothers missing their daughters. I knew one of these friends needed to be loved a little more today, so I paid a visit to her office with a very small gift and received the best gift - a tight hug that has carried me all day long. I continued with my day and everything was on schedule until, I received a message asking me to connect with a family and share The Christian Bryant Foundation. I am always happy to share Christian’s Foundation, so this was not a big deal. When I recieved the message, I was at a place that I could head backs towards Chattanooga. I got in the car and playing on the radio was the song, “I can only imagine”....this was on a secular station and I was not sure why I was hearing this song about someone’s entrance into heaven at this time. I arrived at my destination and talked briefly with a sweet Mom and Dad and was leaving...I was talking with one of the nurses and remembered my phone was vibrating a text when I was leaving this family. I looked at my phone and I had 2 text messages. One was from a Mother that I have gotten very close to, telling me her son just earned his wings. I was literally knocked to my knees. I am thankful for the presence of 2 very dear nurses that love me and loved Christian and love Chris and Bailey. I was in the hospital, so I of course offered my presence...and she replied, “that would be nice.” She told me their location and after taking some deep breaths, shedding tears and trying to get it together, I headed to my destination. I walked in, and ask one of the physicians what room I needed to go to....these are the same physicians that cared for Christian that I am extremely close too...I was doing good until the physician put her arm around me, of course I started crying again...by the grace of God, I got it together and entered the room of this beautiful young man that I love, with his parents at his bedside. The Mother and I hugged tightly and there were more tears shed. I do not know the Father as well and I knew he was grieving deeply. I stayed with my friends and their beautiful son, who was no longer part of this world. I can honestly say today, I saw perfect peace on this young man’s face. After a bit, I offered to pray with them (I have only done this 2 other times in my life, both as a nurse, the first after a traumatic death and the other time, I was visiting our Senior Pastor at the time and offered to pray). Today was different, we were 3 parents in a small room...I cried while praying and they cried...but I know God’s presence was in the room because the peace I felt when I first walked in, never left. I witnessed some incredible things today, as a non parent....actually what I witnessed just solidified what I have known since 2011. Our local pediatric oncolgist are amazing, loving, caring and compassionate and our Child Life Specialist are some of the most special people I have ever met, especially the 2 present today. So today, looking back, God was preparing me for my day...I am thankful for all the special people in my life that love me everyday and allow me to be me! Tonight, I am thankful for the beautiful life of Jonathan Charre! Thank you Jonathan and Heathe for allowing me and The Christian Bryant Foundation to be a small part of your journey.
“Everyday is a gift, you never know what will happen.” - Christian Bryant, November 2011
“Love Deeply, Forgive Often and Find your Blessings!” - Robyn