July 31, 2014 Evening

by Robyn Bryant


July 31, 2014 Late Evening

 

I try very hard to focus on the present but sometimes it is just not possible...this time of year is one of those times...but tonight, I am not going to write about the past, I am sure that will come soon...but just about today....

 

Today, as days goes was pretty uneventful...I actually went to work and that is always good for me, it gets my mind on different things and I am getting closer and closer to being ready to truly take care of a patient again...I truly cannot wait until the day that I leave work and I have been part of a change in someone’s life or helped save a life...

 

I got home today and all was great in our small family!  I have been working this week on having a lighter dinner and having it ready earlier...the last 3 nights, after dinner, Chris and Bailey have headed out to walk 9 holes together on the golf course.  I love that they are spending some quality time together....when my ankle is better, I will join them....When they left tonight, I cleaned up after dinner and then called a friend with something I have had on my mind all day....I talked to my friend, Holly Shull for an hour and a half and it was so good, I wish we were still talking...I hung up with Holly and called another friend that I have not talked to in almost 2 years, we have texted, but not spoken......Oh my goodness, when she answered the phone my breath caught...have you ever known someone whose voice just soothed you?  I have not, until my friend, Lydia.  Lydia is the mother of a pediatric cancer patient, like me....and like me, her daughter died!  When Christian died, Lydia’s daughter, Jessica, was right next door to the room we occupied on the floor and we had grown very close over a 6 week daily contact period...  Lydia, was the first person to tell me I had to pray for God’s will....I did not really like that advice....But she gave the best hugs and after that day I changed the way I prayed and boy did God start revealing his plan...even though until the very last moment you just cannot accept it...still not really okay with it!  Tonight, I am thankful to hear the soothing voice of Lydia Ward again and to know we live in the same world and we are both surviving the worst loss imaginable....But, Today, I just want you to all know, I am thankful! For Lydia, For Holly and for Tiffany and Jason Beavers (only they will get this)! - Robyn Bryant