October 15, 2014

by Robyn Bryant


October 15, 2014

 

How many of you wake up and your first thought is sending a Birthday message to someone whose precious son should have turned 17 today? That’s my world! I sent my message and tried to be supportive and comforting, but my gosh, I live the life of of a parent whose daughter died too young and I do not know what to say...there are just no words. The last 10 days have been extremely difficult....I have had very rare occasions that I have had contact with oncology families since Christian’s death. Some of the children were doing great, one child, mentioned above was preparing to leave this world. A few others, I just follow on Facebook and converse back and forth with their parents, but I have never met them face to face. During the summer, I met a family that I have continued to stay in contact with and that The Christian Bryant Foundation has helped out some (Not near enough), they would not mind me sharing that information. The past 10 days have been harder for me, because, I have been more directly involved with current children in crisis. Not really involved with the children, but with the parents. Yesterday, I was blessed to spend over 2 hours in the PICU at T.C. Thompson talking with 2 different oncolgy families. I know both families and was invited to be there...the blessing is that they even want to talk to ME, someone whose child died in that same PICU. The conversations are never easy for me and anyone that knows me well, knows that my tears flow freely, as they did yesterday at different times. Another blessing yesterday, was the compassion from the PICU Intensivist and nurses that saw me...I received tight hugs (I am not really a hugger), but in that unit, in that hospital, tight hugs are welcome! And another blessing is the fact that I have been a Registered Nurse for over 25 years, eventhough the past few years I have been less active with direct patient care...I can still put on my nurse hat along with being a parent and be direct and try to offer sound information, not really advise...just information. Something that resonated with me before going to PICU yesterday,  and thinking about the last 42 days Christian was in PICU....And I shared this with one of the Mamas and Daddys yesterday....God gives us many gifts! And I know without doubt that the Oncolgist, PICU Intensivist, RNs and the many specialist involved in Christian’s care were the “Hands and Feet” of Christ! God did not decide that Christian Bryant was going to get leukemia and die...but that happened....I know on May 26, 2012, God said to Christian, “It’s done, come on, you have run your race and won!” This weekend, many will run and walk to honor the memory of Christian Moseley Bryant on Team CMB. Thank you to all that support and volunteer and run or walk! - Robyn Bryant