A Reflection, May 26, 2013

by Robyn Bryant


A Reflection, May 26, 2013

As I sit here this morning, I am engulfed with many feelings and emotions.  At this time last year, Christian was heading towards the finish line.  Chris arrived in PICU first the morning of May 26, 2012, he came back down to 316 quickly and told me that Christian’s blood pressure was a lot lower and they had increased all the medicine to keep it up.  When I arrived, I knew the minute I walked in her room that she would be leaving us soon.  I talked with Lori, one of Christian’s nurses, and then I talked to Christian and loved on her.  The week leading up to this day had been horrific, especially, May 24th, I really did not think Christian would survive that awful day, so on the 24th, I told her that it was okay to leave, the 25th was a much better day and hope returned.  The morning of the 26th, Chris and I stepped away to talk, we knew Dr. Bhakta was on his way.  Our discussion was difficult.  We prayed and read our devotion, the scripture was “I am the Alpha and Omega, the First and Last, the Beginning and the End.” Revelation 22:13  and “I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence.  In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world.” John 16:33.  I truly believe the morning of May 26, 2012, God said to Christian, “Come on, it is time for you to finish this race, you have fought long and hard, you have accomplished all you need to, take my hand and come home, your family and friends and all those that love you will be okay.”  I am thankful Chris made sure Bailey arrived quickly at Christian’s bedside.  That morning was surreal, in the hours Christian was was finishing her beautiful race, nurses, doctors and friends came to tell Christian good bye.  Many of the nurses and doctors were not on duty, they came because they loved Christian so much.  I will forever be grateful for the amazing people that cared for Christian during her last year.  At 11:58, surrounded by family, as her doctor, Eric Gratias says, “Christian broke the tape.”  Christian won her race, she received ultimate healing.  I am so thankful that God shared her with us for over 18 years.  In the year that Christian has been physically gone, she has continued to touch and change lives.  She continues to live on in our hearts forever.    - Robyn Bryant